I am participating in Star Wars group. Nothing special - we just watch Star Wars and then discuss what we've seen. Our teacher asked us a question this meeting: "Some characters in Star Wars have special powers. What kind of magic power would you like to have?" One answer was about magic beard, another was about ability to fly. I said that I want to be immortal but have an opportunity to stop living at the moment I'd like to :)
But some guy in the group said that he wanted to have a power to forgive everyone. He said that now he had been driving a car a lot these days. And he became angry with many drivers. He wanted to forgive them easily. We continued to discuss that topic for a while.
I said that it's quite easy for me to forgive other people. It depends on situation but in most cases I forgive people after a while. But it's difficult to forgive yourself. I've done a lot of bad things to other people: lying, cheating, shouting instead of helping. It follows me every day. I remember about what I've done and I feel sad and ashamed. My teacher said that she also had the same situation. But she made a list of things she had done and confessed to a priest in a church. And she felt free and happy after that.
It's very cool about confession, church and priest. But what if I don't believe in God? What should I do? How not to blame yourself?
I've been feeling not very good for last 2 or 3 weeks. All my bad things are haunting me. I have a kind of big stone on me that tries to squash me. And I feel its weight every minute. I want it to disappear but how can I forgive myself? And there are some issues that other person haven't forgiven me yet. So I don't have a right to forgive myself those things. Even if people will forgive me all my deeds, I should forgive myself. I cry from time to time.
I think about the list of all bad things I've done. Maybe it helps somehow. I'm not sure.
But some guy in the group said that he wanted to have a power to forgive everyone. He said that now he had been driving a car a lot these days. And he became angry with many drivers. He wanted to forgive them easily. We continued to discuss that topic for a while.
I said that it's quite easy for me to forgive other people. It depends on situation but in most cases I forgive people after a while. But it's difficult to forgive yourself. I've done a lot of bad things to other people: lying, cheating, shouting instead of helping. It follows me every day. I remember about what I've done and I feel sad and ashamed. My teacher said that she also had the same situation. But she made a list of things she had done and confessed to a priest in a church. And she felt free and happy after that.
It's very cool about confession, church and priest. But what if I don't believe in God? What should I do? How not to blame yourself?
I've been feeling not very good for last 2 or 3 weeks. All my bad things are haunting me. I have a kind of big stone on me that tries to squash me. And I feel its weight every minute. I want it to disappear but how can I forgive myself? And there are some issues that other person haven't forgiven me yet. So I don't have a right to forgive myself those things. Even if people will forgive me all my deeds, I should forgive myself. I cry from time to time.
I think about the list of all bad things I've done. Maybe it helps somehow. I'm not sure.
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