Forgiveness and other magic powers

I am participating in Star Wars group. Nothing special - we just watch Star Wars and then discuss what we've seen. Our teacher asked us a question this meeting: "Some characters in Star Wars have special powers. What kind of magic power would you like to have?" One answer was about magic beard, another was about ability to fly. I said that I want to be immortal but have an opportunity to stop living at the moment I'd like to :)
But some guy in the group said that he wanted to have a power to forgive everyone. He said that now he had been driving a car a lot these days. And he became angry with many drivers. He wanted to forgive them easily. We continued to discuss that topic for a while.
I said that it's quite easy for me to forgive other people. It depends on situation but in most cases I forgive people after a while. But it's difficult to forgive yourself. I've done a lot of bad things to other people: lying, cheating, shouting instead of helping. It follows me every day. I remember about what I've done and I feel sad and ashamed. My teacher said that she also had the same situation. But she made a list of things she had done and confessed to a priest in a church. And she felt free and happy after that.
It's very cool about confession, church and priest. But what if I don't believe in God? What should I do? How not to blame yourself?
I've been feeling not very good for last 2 or 3 weeks. All my bad things are haunting me. I have a kind of big stone on me that tries to squash me. And I feel its weight every minute. I want it to disappear but how can I forgive myself? And there are some issues that other person haven't forgiven me yet. So I don't have a right to forgive myself those things. Even if people will forgive me all my deeds, I should forgive myself. I cry from time to time.
I think about the list of all bad things I've done. Maybe it helps somehow. I'm not sure.

Photoshop tools and Drupal on Ubuntu

I installed Drupal on Ubuntu today! I've done it but with some troubles. I am so stupid that I just went to manual page of chmod and then I didn't know how to exit the page and continue to work in the shell! But now I have some experience and it's good :) Also I started to work on a course about Drupal.

One of today's main discoveries: when you use selecting tool in Photoshop you can set the  proportions of the selected area. So you set width and height and the selected area will be exactly with that proportion. Very nice! I think I should learn more about Photoshop. Automation of work, for instance :)

Drupal and Dutch

I started to learn Drupal basic's for a new project. I went to drupal.org page and found Dutch language in the main list of translations of documentation! Eh? Dutch? Not many people speak Dutch (I think it's beautiful language but still...). Yes! Drupal was created by Belgian guys. And word 'drupal' is referred to Dutch one 'druppel' which means 'drop' ('water drop'). Yeah, I guess I am the only person in the world who didn't know about that :) But good to know :)

P.S. Drupal's logo sucks. Sorry, guys.

I found out about a great singer - Nick Drake. Usually, I don't like 'old' guys' music. But his music is just wonderful!
Today I talked to some girl - she is a Personal Adviser. I received an email that I am participating in an experiment. Every person who received that letter will talk to a PA about some troubles or things he/she dislikes in a company or just wants to achieve but there is something which disturbs it. I said that I didn't complain about anything and I liked to work in my company. But during the conversation I reminded about a thing that I wanted to move on in my professional life. I am just a simple front end developer and it's time to move on. It's time to decide what to do in the future - whether I want to be a DBA or a programmer (maybe doctor or astronaut =)). My PA encouraged me about a programming - it's not so difficult as I imagine. Especially if I want something very much. I should try. I have a thought to learn Java. Maybe then I can move to development for Android. We will see :)